Astounded

For My Best Friends

Sunday, June 6, 2010,3:29 PM

I'm looking back on things and just now realizing a lot of things that I didn't know at the time. I guess what I realized is how much I love my SMC babes. I love them with all that I have. I sit here knowing that I cannot live without my SMC. Even if life takes me to the other side of the world, I wouldn't love them less nor would I ever call anyone my best friend in place of them. They're my best friends. My heart. My soul. They make up the Kia that I am now. Without them I wouldn't be able to get where I am. Without them, I'd probably dead on the streets. Individually, they all offer me something unique that the other cannot give. We're compatible like peanut butter and jelly or drunk nights and fast food.

This past year was my worst year yet. I sometimes forget that they were present for that terrible time in my life. Sadee clothed and fed me. Chua was there to deal with the emotional problems and fed me as well. They gave me a place to stay and lended me an ear when I needed it. I couldn't ask for more. I would probably have been dead on the streets starving if they didn't help me when I needed it most. I know my best friends will always be there. Always. Even when I was annoying and when they didn't have the time or the money, they still tried. They always tried. I never knew what "best friends" were until I met them. They gave me all of themselves and handed over everything they had just to help me out of a tight spot. Thats when I realized who my real friends were and who were the fakes.

When Neng broke up with me and broke my heart, SMC found a way to show me how to smile again. They taught me how to laugh and to enjoy the simple things in life again. Instead of finding some other guy to cover up my wound, this time around, I let my friends patch up that wound for me. Together we did so much healing. Chua gained confidence. Sadee learned how to be patient and Kong learned to slowly express himself. When I was at my worst they came in and picked me up. They told me it was ok and showed me that it really is ok. Hearts get broken but they also get better. I realized that it wasn't Lawrence that allowed me to love KP, it was SMC. They broke down my walls and let me know that there are trustworthy people out there. They showed me that its ok to love because loving was all that was good in this world. They let me know that loving was ok by loving me with all they had. They never let me fall. Never. Not even once. And at times, when I did find myself falling, they caught me just in the nick of time. They showed me how to feel again. I'm months late on this thank you, but thanks SMC. Thank you guys for all that you've done. When one of us hurts, all of us hurts. I forgot how much we loved one another and how strong our love was until today. I was reminded of it when I came across Neng's ugly remarks on me. I realized he blamed soooo much of the wrongs in his life on me. And I felt sorry for him. I felt sorry that he still couldn't move on with his life. Thats when I realize that I don't blame anyone for the wrongs in my life, but who do I thank for all the rights in my life? I realized I have you guys to thank. Together we mended our broken hearts.

If it wasn't for you guys my life would be miserable at best. The rain can pour all day and I know that you guys wouldn't put up the umbrellas, but instead dance with me in the rain. When the sun shines I know it'll only be because we're all shining together. Life is only beautiful when you can share it with those that you truly love and care about. I'm happy and oh so thankful that God would be generous enough to send you guys to me. When I kept complaining that I God doesn't hear my prayers or that he didn't care to make my life less painful, I realized I was wrong. God hears all of my prayers and answered every single one of them. I was just too blinded by hate and pain to realize any of it. His answer to all my troubles is SMC. To make life less painful he sent me three beautiful people who can make me laugh and yet cry. He sent me three beautiful people who'd share one single blanket with me in the dead of the winter. He sent me three beautiful who would come to my rescue no matter where I was in the world. He sent me love in the form of three beautiful human beings. Best friends truly are God's apology for a dysfunctional family.

I'm not ashamed to say it or represent it, I'm an SMC chick for the rest of my life. Life wouldn't be worth living without you guys. I'll be here forever. Come to me just to have a cup of coffee or to simply have someone to complain to. Come to me when you're lost and alone. Better yet, I'll come to you when you're lost and alone. I love you guys. I love you Chua Wang. I love you Sadee Xiong. I love you Kong Yang. I love you all. My beautiful wonderful fantastic awesome SMC.

Love, Kia Yang