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Thursday, May 27, 2010,5:43 PM

I sit here not knowing what to write. I sit here wondering when things will be alright. I sit here thinking about all of this and I already know that I have no answer. I don't know when things will be ok again and I don't know if it will ever work out. Yes, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'll lose grip of it all. I'm afraid that nothing will ever be set right again. I'm tired of everything and yet I'm not letting a single tear drop.

School drains me so much. I come home tired everyday. I'm on the search for a job. I'm launching my career in more than one ways. I'm trying to cope with my family and friends. I'm losing the love I thought would always be there. Life is getting crazy and hectic again. I guess I made it that way though. I need to do things to keep my mind off of things. If I stop just for one single moment, I may hear my thoughts run wild in my head and I can't allow for that to happen. Not now. Not ever. My life can't afford another downfall....yet its all falling right through my hands.

Doua....I miss you. SMC isn't there the way you are. In fact, I can't even go to them. Its so hard to just go to them and tell them I'm suffering. Doua....I miss you. I miss our long drives and random talks. I miss how we would hang out and not do a single thing yet enjoy every single moment of it. I wish you were here right now. I wish I could tell you all of the things that bothered me. Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up. No one is there to pick me up either. Doua. Jaymoua. *sighs* Help me.

I'm falling apart at the seams. What happened to my knight in shining armor? I miss my knight in shining armor....he's too busy ignoring my broken heart.

Love, Kia Yang

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