Read the daily ramblings of my life. Read it and weep. ;)

My name is Kia, but you can call me Nana as well. I'm 19 years old and currently reside in Minnesota. I'm a cosmetology student at Minnesota School of Cosmetology. I love art in all its forms. I love makeup and fashion. I'm very passionate about the field I'm in. I also write and read. I still believe reading is one of the best forms of entertainment out there. I'm a loving sweet person who enjoys being around her loved ones. I love all things girly and I'm very easygoing. I'm also a child at heart. Give me ice cream and a smile will instantaneously appear on my face. I'm outgoing and friendly. Most of all, I'm Kia Yang and I do the impossible. =)

"My goal as a cosmetologist is not to make the world beautiful one person at a time, but to show them that they are beautiful one person at a time" ♥

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Every girl has a group of friends she goes to when someone breaks her heart. A group of friends that a girl can go shopping with. A group of friends that a gal can do absolutely nothing with and still enjoy herself. Me and my best friends go by SMC, Sex Machines Crew, a name that we came up with while making fun of bboys. There were originally six of us, but now its come down to four of us. I'm quite confused as to what happened cause there really was no problem or disagreement of any sort. People choose to just stray I guess. People get older and grow up. They find new things to amuse themselves with and feel as though the old things have lost their luster. But, true friends never abandon one another. True friends don't find excuses for losing contact with one another. I'm usually never one to point fingers since I'm always the nice one, but this time around I'm different. Life's many obstacles has taught me to be less sweet and a tad more cruel. So yes, I am going to point fingers. And yes, I will be a bitch. And no, I won't be so forgiving anymore. And no, I won't return to you or cry those bitter tears for a friendship like yours. And no, I will not take you back with my loving arms. I'm tired of playing these games.

Honestly, I loved you two so much. I always forgave you guys and took you guys back with loving arms with no questions asked. But one too many times you guys took advantage of me. As friends, how can you guys do that to me? Don't even BITCH or MOAN about how no one is there for you. I'm so sick of hearing that excuse as to why you guys are always leaving SMC or that we don't make an effort to hang out. Or that all SMC does is party with one another and we don't care about each other emotionally. Take that bullshit of yours and shove it down your fucken throat. Yeah, I finally said it. How can we be there for you if you never open up? How can we invite you out to outings if you always say no? People get tired of inviting folks out that never actually come out or pull through on things. So don't even say we don't make an effort when YOU don't fucken make an effort too. Don't say that all we do is party with one another and crap like that! We party together, but you know through thick and thin SMC was always there to pull me up. I can say the same for you two as well. When you got backstabbed or people broke your fucken hearts, who was there!? Fucken ask yourself! Who was thered? Dumb broads.

Before I was sadden to lose you guys, but now more than ever I am happy. I am happy with all that I have right now. I don't regret a single thing. I still respect you guys and will say hi, I won't be childish about it, but dont' expect me to love you guys like how I used to anymore. That bridge has burned down. Take your pretentious love and get outta here. I'm so sick and tired of it. You guys claimed me, betrayed me, and threw me away. Where were you guys when I was lost and lonely? No where to be found. So I out to be the one saying that I barely got ANY emotional support from you guys. Bitches. Always thinking that we're such horrible friends. Get a fucken grip! We're human beings. We're bound to hurt and hurt others. Think of it that way and think about the hurt you guys inflicted too. Its not a one way street here dumbasses. It went both ways. But you guys are too busy being selfish to even think about that. Fuckers. SO damn selfish. And no, I'm not sorry for typing all of this cause its how I feel. Deal with it. And if you think I won't say the same thing in person, I will. I'm a changed Kia. I'm not so sweet anymore. I just never bitched about it before because I really believed in the good in you two, but god, did you two prove me wrong. So, all in all, I wish you guys luck. Go be happy elsewhere. Just don't bring back your pretentious love.

I have all that I need in my life right now. I have my fambam, my SMC babes, and KP. I'm a happier person. So to all the haters, keep on hating, ya'll give me promo. And to all the dumbasses who think they're so bomb I give you my middle finger. And to the two lost members of SMC, I give you a kind smile and a goodbye. I really hated much of our friendship. I was just a pawn. Used and thrown away. In every single photo of us three, I was the photographer and never included in a photo. What great friends. Bitch. Now I got my true homes, SMC all the way.

Truly Yours, Kia Yang

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