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A Million Reasons Why
Sunday, August 1, 2010,12:12 PM

I've been finding myself missing SMC a lot lately. Its the oddest feeling. Some days I go perfectly fine and happy without them on my mind, but some days it brings me down so low. Its a love-hate relationship. *sighs* To be honest I miss all of them individually and as a whole. Its just not in me to abandon someone or something. I miss them dearly. I want us to all get together again someday. I really miss em. Just one day to us SMC kids. I really need it too. So much school and work I haven't had time for myself. I just want some pampering time. =)

This past weekend made me realize just how much I miss my girls. No matter what happens they're always my down ass girls. I've come to realize that I need them just as much as they need me. I realized how much I need that girl companionship. That time away from them was just what I needed though. I'm glad I took that break from them. I don't regret it. I think it just made me stronger. It left me standing alone and let me learn how to deal with life's problems as they come. I can now say that I can pretty much take a lot of things on now. I can't take the whole world on quite yet, but I can do well on my own now. I'm not some broken fragile bird anymore. I'm finally learning how to take flight on my own. I'm proud myself. Through it all, I've somehow made it and learned how to take the troubles and turn it into something that can make me smile. Through the trials and tribulations I am pushing through. I have to push through in order to see the rainbow after the rain.

I'm a happier person today than I was yesterday. I owe so much of it to SMC, Doua, and KP. We all hurt one another at one point and time, but what matters is that at the end of the day I know that no matter what these people will come for me. I apologize to all of you for my actions. I had to do what I did in order to get to where I am today. I was so lost and hurt. I was so confused. Life is hard and its only getting harder, but that short time of seperation showed me that I have the strength to live this hard life. It showed me that God is watching over me and keeping me safe. Through it all I think I've finally found a little piece of happiness in the breakdown. I want to be happy and in order to be happy I must go through all of the hurt and tears first.

I love all of you with all of my heart. You all don't know to which extent my love goes for you. Its pretty much endless.

Love, Kia Yang

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