Read the daily ramblings of my life. Read it and weep. ;)

My name is Kia, but you can call me Nana as well. I'm 19 years old and currently reside in Minnesota. I'm a cosmetology student at Minnesota School of Cosmetology. I love art in all its forms. I love makeup and fashion. I'm very passionate about the field I'm in. I also write and read. I still believe reading is one of the best forms of entertainment out there. I'm a loving sweet person who enjoys being around her loved ones. I love all things girly and I'm very easygoing. I'm also a child at heart. Give me ice cream and a smile will instantaneously appear on my face. I'm outgoing and friendly. Most of all, I'm Kia Yang and I do the impossible. =)

"My goal as a cosmetologist is not to make the world beautiful one person at a time, but to show them that they are beautiful one person at a time" ♥

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I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I feel like I sometimes forget how wonderful the people I love are. I sometimes take them for granted as they have taken me for granted. I guess everyone feels like that sometimes. I think so much these days. I am just trying my best to be considerate of everyone these days. I don't want anyone to feel as if I don't care because I do.

I'm starting school on April 5th and I am sooo damn excited. I will be working part time and attending school full time. I won't being seeing anyone at all anymore! I'm so stressed out. So much to do in little time. I just want to get my financial issues taken care of. I wish I had all the money in the world so I wouldn't have to worry about it. KP keeps telling me not to worry, but I do! I worry. I worry cause I feel like I'm in this all alone. I don't have much support from my family at all. Oh well, I just have to remember that this is for me. For the better. For my life. In the end, it'll all pay off. Oh how I miss free education now! Haha. I sure took high school for granted. Imagine if we had to pay for k-12 education too! We'd all be damn broke! Although I am happy. I got a lot of my tuition paid off by federal money! Less for me to worry about. Imagine if I had to pay 10,000 out of my own pocket! Ack! I'd go crazy!

Lately I've been finding myself wanting more time to myself too. I don't know why either, but my time alone is fun for me. I find myself enjoying it a lot these days. I find myself doing things that I used to do and I find myself being able to sort things out for myself. I like it. Its a newfound sort of odd happiness. I'm skipping all over the place with my thoughts. I guess my mind is all over the place. I'm kind of stressed too. I have to get so much done in so little time. Its excited yet overwhelming. I gotta go out and find me a janky car too and pay for it all on my own. I'm so damn broke. But hey! It pays off! Right!? I get me a car to drive around...even if its a janky ass car. And then I have to plan events for Mirage. Do makeup for them. Direct photoshoots. Do all that good stuff. Life will be busy busy busy but thats how I like it. I realized I don't like my down times when I have shit to do. I like having my schedule packed so I always have something to do. Although....I don't want to be so busy that the people I love will have to be penciled into my schedule or have hangouts bumped to another day of the week. Those I love will always be my first priority.

I'm excited. But lately I've been so lethargic and sickly. I don't know whats wrong either. No matter what I do I still feel sickly. I work out and eat healthy but I still find myself sickly. I hope its nothing big. I hope all those bad medical issues don't occur again. They haven't worked up since 08-09 winter. KP! Stop smoking around me! My mother can tell I'm unhealthy again these days too. She's prescribing me soooo many herbal medicine and stuff. And she's stuffing fruits and veggies down my throat like there is no tomorrow! If Doua was here he'd attack me with meds! Ick! I hate taking my meds.

This past weekend was terrible too! Nothing went as planned and people got mad at me. I just sat at home all sad like a puppy that just got kicked. I felt really alone and weird this weekend. I felt out of place like no matter where I went or who I was with...I didn't belong. I just wanted to come home and sleep it all off. I've been moodswinging like crazy. I have no idea what's wrong with me. I just need time away from people I guess. I feel weird these days. Its hard to explain. Maybe its like what everyone has been telling me, I'm growing up.

I know, I know....my blog today was all over the place, but I guess thats how I feel mentally. I'm all over the place. I need to hit up the library again for more books.

Truly Yours, Kia Yang

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